Someone told me that. I had heard it. But now I’m starting to really get it. And I’m afraid my agency should have had “faint of heart” on my physcial for my doctor to check off during my paper chase…because I think I might have had to check it. But since that wasn’t asked—we slid […]
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I can really sympathize with how you're feeling. It is so hard to try and think about anything but my baby and it just doesn't seem like anyone in real life gets that! They all think I'm crazy!
Thankfully I have people in blogland who get it! I think the fact that referrals are slooooooow right now is making it worse.
I have felt really desperate with the waiting lately and I just know that after we get our referrals and have to wait for court dates and travel dates it is going to be so much worse. I honestly have no idea how I'm going to make it through this process.
Thank God for blogging friends who understand 🙂
i am sorry for the heaviness in your heart. i know this journey is full of joy and pain. it can be really confusing. i remember the longing. the adoption process lives out the truth of proverbs 13:12. hope deferred makes the heart sick but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life. i look forward to the day when you will be able to say those sweet things to your son, face to face. until then, your love for him, as expressed in your longing, is beautiful albeit painful.
great post…Ok, so i so can feel your pain…BUT I thought the worst heart ache..you know the kind like I can't wait one more minute or I might explode, was AFTER referral…knowing she was waiting for me…Oh, the heart ache!! but just like child birth, the pain is gone instantly when you meet your child for the first time…amazing how God does that 🙂 so excited to see WHO it's gonna be..AND keep watching that wait list..cause I saw many babies and children come through while I was waiting 🙂 And, they'd keep your birth order 🙂 hang in there, kj
Praying for you today… remember that, as you already noted, God knows your son, and He knows just the timing needed to bring your family together. I can't imagine being in your position (although we prayerfully hope to be someday soon!).
Are the referrals slow all around right now? Any reason for the delay other than the age restraints for your family?
Nikki
This breaks my heart–I don't understand but I "get it" and I know our LORD knows EXACTLY what you are feeling.
Praying for you dear friend! As we are doing our Jesse Tree (thanks to you and another bloggy friend) we KNOW that God has begun this work in you and HE will be faithful to bring forth the ONE! Praising HIM in advance for the miracle of your SON (or daughter)!